I struggle with bringing the past into my present. Does anybody relate? How do we “clean” our hearts of the past so we don’t bring it into our present day lives? This is a question I think a lot of us deal with. In moments of anxiety and frustration I call upon what God has previously done in my life. 

I got saved in 2014. I accepted Jesus into my life at a business meeting of all places. But, I wasn’t “sold out” to Jesus until He healed my broken heart. 

Right after I got saved I went through a bad break up. My heart was so broken, I cried for days. I woke up Sunday morning fully planning on staying in bed, depressed. But, something in me told me I needed to be at church that morning. I desperately did not want to go. I really despise crying in front of people, to me crying was a private event. I think back then I thought of tears as signs of weakness, so not true. Regardless of how I felt I got dressed and went to church. 

There was a guest speaker that day, a man named Geno. I cannot tell you what Geno preached on, not one piece of it. But, Geno did an altar call, what for? I don’t remember that either. I just remember being up there and desperate for relief from this pain. Geno came over to me and laid hands on me and instantly my heart was healed. My tears of sadness instantly became tears of freedom, tears of gratefulness. I was instantly healed of a broken heart. I never looked back after that moment. Listen, my thinking at that time was, a medical doctor can heal your body but nothing… no one but Jesus can heal a broken heart. I was and am 100% convinced Jesus is real and my whole life changed after that moment.  

With that testimony in mind when I hit moments where I am letting the past affect my future I have to call upon Jesus. 

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4: 6-7

 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:7

Am I perfect at not letting the past affect my present, no. But that is exactly why I have Jesus. In moments when I am doubting myself, or struggling with anxiety about the future due to things that I have been through… I have someone to turn to, Jesus. 

There is no right or wrong way to turn to Jesus. My healing came at a church service, yours could happen alone in your room or while driving your car. Best part about Jesus is He is wherever you are whenever you need Him. In moments when we are letting the past dirty up our future we need to turn to Him as a reminder of who we are and where we are going. He alone can “clean” up your past, present and future. 

“Come now, let’s settle this,”says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, I will make them as white as snow. Isaiah 1:18

Posted 03/15/2023